Shadows of darkness
Arise from the back of the mind
Overwhelming everything
In any way they can
Can we ever survive this tunnel of terror ?
Tonight, next week, year or in a next life?
Drinking has found a way
My inner self has been able to
control it in some sort of way
so to say.
Consumption has gone down
and it seems I have successfully
been able to turn my addiction around.
Now we need to be able
to keep this momentum
and to not fall back
into old past habits
and extend this period
of self ressurection
and continue on this path.
The empty void
a lonely black hole
in the middle of
your own
perception of the universe,
do you know ?
Can you apprehend ?
and also understand ?
the complex workings
that are going on
behind the scenes ?
Have you ever seen
what happens behind
the curtain ?
Do you know
who pulls the strings ?
and who has
the most power off all
people and living things ?
After a week,
One which was without alcohol
I again had a drink.
My thoughts are torn in two
One side says it was ok
and one side says it was not.
On the one hand I celebrated
that I did not drink for a week
On the other hand I drank again
after a week and sinned so to speak.
Maybe I should not think about
it too much and just try to
keep my alcohol consumption
to a minimum from week to week ?
That might be the easiest solution to keep true to
every week around…. and might be the solution for now.
Going on a journey
To collect my lost soul pieces
and become whole
Know it is going to be a long and though road
Soul retrieval is not something to be taken light you know.
After collecting one or two
parts you will need to
make sure these pieces
will stay with your main part
so make sure to ask them
what will give them comfort.
If you will let them slip away again
it will only become harder to collect them again.
Heart like ice, eyes like fire.
Hands that offer love for hire.
In this house, there dwells a man.
Who heals the soul like no one can.
Words to inspire, a shoulder to cry on.
A thousand faces, he can try on.
Postures, phrasing, fine technique.
Calm the fearful, lift the weak.
They look to him for faith and care.
They bring their gifts, he meets them there.
The system works, and many find
new strength of soul, and peace of mind.
But when the day is spent and gone,
he climbs the stairs and sits alone.
And wonders how it all began
a gentle, unassuming man
Who makes his living, selling faith
who stands aside and hides his face
and never dares to show his pain
who never doubts, and feels no shame
And here he dwells, in sacred space
encased in stone, with smiling face.
And sometimes, in his room at night
his eyes behold a fearsome sight
to fix his gaze upon the fire
Of Ancient Master to inquire
His mind remembers words he spoke
they dance with faces in the smoke
And there he knows, with joy divine
That he is of a different kind
A race of beings on the Earth
a wondrous tribe, of noble birth
Who live their lives devoid of care
extending hands to lift despair
Who can’t be seen, or known, or touched
who ponder little, offer much
He has no life apart from this
He feels no joy, he tastes no kiss
No sons to dance around his feet
No tender maid, his flesh to meet
But just to stay inside his room
Available for all who come.
And give to them the hope they crave
in fair exchange for alms they gave
It just makes sense, a noble quest
Among his kind, this man’s the best
Receive the rubble of their lives
exchange the sorrow, wipe the eyes
These folks who wander here and there
In search of hope, with cupboards bare
And he alone can reach inside
remove the splinters, calm the tide
He’s truly worth what people pay him
sweet relief from fear and mayhem
So do not judge the way he lives
the smile he wears, the gifts he gives
But understand that in this world
among the stones, there lives a pearl
Who stands alone and won’t look back
who faces darkness, fear and lack
And wipes away the pains of life
And cuts the bonds of guilt and strife
Then walks away from those he helps
without a thought about himself
Heart like ice, eyes like fire
hands that offer “love for hire”
This, the lonely Shaman’s call
living life behind a wall
No excuse for who he is
We can’t deny the help he gives
But we can wonder, when he’s gone
About this wondrous path he’s on
Is it pride, or just a gift?
That he would have no voice to lift
Of hopes and fears that were his own
to speak his pains, and make them known
To take from hands of love with friends
to feel and hurt like other men
Alas, it seems we’ll never know
the spirit wind that round him blows
So we must simply be content
to just accept this noble gent
And place our judgment on the shelf
And keep him hid inside ourself.
(C) Daniel Jacob, 1993
“RAVEN, SHARE WITH ME YOUR MAGICK.
I AM THE DARKNESS IN THE LIGHT,
THE LIGHT IN THE DARKNESS.”
Raven carries magick from the dark void of the Crone (dark mother) to our realm.
This void is where great knowledge awaits us. Thus, Raven has a great
responsibility to the spirit realm. Those who have Raven medicine will also feel
this responsibility and will tend to be those who share deeper knowledge
spiritual teachers, healers, priests, doctors, prophets.
Raven comes when you ask for love, light and healing. When Raven brings his
medicine to you, he gives you a heightened awareness, sharper perception and an
expanded consciousness. With this new perception, you can look into the heart
and soul of people, begin feeling what they feel. This strong empathy can be a
burden.
With this refined perception comes a responsibility to use the Raven medicine
wisely. Once could abuse it, using it for selfish, nefarious purposes. This is
not the way to go. Use the clarity and understanding that Raven gives you for
good purposes. That is why Raven comes to you when you need night the most. He
does not want you to turn to the darkness because it will eventually destroy
you. As long as you use Raven’s powerful medicine for the good of others, life
will continue to flow smoothly for you as well.
The Raven’s keynote is that of magic, shapeshifting, and creation. While its
cycle of power is that of winter solstice. The raven is one of those birds that
has a tremendous amount of lore and mythology surrounding it, and it is often
contradictory. It is a bird of birth and death, and it is a bird of mysticism
and magic.
In the near East, the raven was considered unclean because it is a scavenger. It
is one of the foods listed as forbidden in the Bible. The raven is one of the
birds that Noah sent out after the floods, but it did not return to the ark. On
the other hand, also in Biblical lore is the tale of how a raven fed the prophet
Elijah when hiding from King Ahab.
In Scandinavian lore, the raven played a significant role. The Norse god Odin
had a pair of ravens who were his messengers. Their names were Hugin (thought)
and Munin (memory). Odin was known to shapeshift as a raven himself. This
reflects the idea of raven being a messenger of the great spiritual realm.
In the Middle Ages the croak of the raven was believed to foretell a death or
the outcome of a battle. It was even taught to the common folk in Christian
communities that wicked priests became ravens when they died. Even today, some
old timers tell how you can expect hot weather when a raven is seen facing a
clouded sun.
The raven is a member of the corvids family, to which belong crows and magpies
and other such birds. In truth, the only really significant difference between
the crow and the raven is in size, the raven being much larger. It would be
beneficial to study the information on the crow for anyone who has a raven as a
totem. Much of the same information that applies to one, also applies to the
other. It is simply a matter of degree. Rather than repeat that information
here, I would like to give you some information not generally associated with
the crow itself.
The raven has a wealth of myth and lore surrounding it. In many ways it is
comparable to the coyote tales of the plains Indians, the Bushmen tales of the
mantis and other societies in which an animal plays both a significant and yet
confusing role. The coyote was both trickster and wise being-fool and wise one.
This was true of the mantis in the tales of the Kalahari Bushmen.
In the Pacific Northwest the raven has this same aura about him. In the Pacific
Northwest, raven brought forth life and order Raven stole the sunlight from one
who would keep the world in darkness. Nothing could exist without raven. Raven
is honored in art and on totem poles, reflecting the tales and mysticism that
have developed around it.
With raven, human and animal spirits intermingle and become as one. This is
reflected in its deep, rich shiny black. In blackness, everything mingles until
drawn forth, out into the light. Because of this, raven can help you shapeshift
your life or your being. Raven has the knowledge of how to become other animals
and how to speak their languages.
Ravens are great at vocalizations, and they can be taught to speak. They
incorporate and mimic the calls of other species. In the Northwest are tales of
the Kwakiutl Indians who offered the afterbirth of male newborns to Raven so
that when they grew up, they would understand their cries. Raven can teach you
to understand the language of animals.
Ravens are playful, and they are excellent tool users. They will use stones and
anything else that is available to help them crack nuts and such. They are birds
not intimidated by others, and they are very fast and wary Because of this, they
are not easy prey for other animals or birds. This implies the ability to teach
you how to stir the magic of life without fear They are also known for their
amorous behavior, reflecting the strong creative life force to which they have
access.
This creative life force can be used to work the magic of spiritual laws upon
the physical plane. It can be used to go into the void and stir the energies to
manifest that which you most need. All this and more is what raven teaches. If
raven has come into your life, expect magic. Somewhere in your life, magic is at
play Raven activates the energy of magic, linking it with your will and
intention.
Raven speaks of the opportunity to become the magician and/or enchantress of
your life. Each of us has a magician within, and it is Raven which can show us
how to bring that part of us out of the dark into the light. Raven speaks of
messages from the spirit realm that can shapeshift your life dramatically Raven
teaches how to take that which is unformed and give it the form you desire.
The winter solstice and winter season is the time of greatest power for those
with the raven as a totem. The solstice is the shortest day of the year The sun
shines the least on this day, thus it is the darkest. From that day forth, the
light shines a little more each day This is symbolic of the influence of raven.
It teaches how to go into the dark and bring forth the light. With each trip in,
we develop the ability to bring more light out. This is creation.
CHANT
Wing so black it shines like Moon at midnight,
O Raven, strong, hear my cry!
Teach me old magick, powerful, bold,
O Raven, eloquent and wise.
© Ted Andrews – Animal Speak
The world is rapidly aging
The process has been accelerated
This started in the last 100 years
At the point where mankind start to burn fossil fuels
Ever since that moment
Nature and mankind
have been dueling for the upperhand
Mankind thinks they are winning
But this is only perception
Nature is grinning!
Diseases, virusses and bacteria
will bring mankind to a state of hysteria.
Mankind will be extinct,
and it will be fullfilled with some sort of terrible disease,
which will kill 95% of our breed
Nature’s Revenge will be sweet
a beast knocks at the door
he comes in through that door
and puts it in the lock
turns the key and then the shock!
this is beastiality in man
the other side of us we need to understand
and comprehend to be able to unity the dualism in man!
